Pain has never been so brilliant

forbidden__wish @ 2005-02-07T19:03:00

2005-02-08T00:17:55Z

I have a boyfriend
I am single
I have never made out with someone
I havent broken anything on my body
I don't take crap from people
I like to take pictures
I have wings
I have been to a concert
I have a name with 11 letters in it
I have a nickname that begins with the letter K
I watch Mad Tv
I have no bedtime
I have 7 phones
I have 3 computers
I overuse the word like
I have a cell phone
I miss the backstreetboys
I wish I was still 4
I like to wear spikes
I like to sing
I am original
I like to chew ABC gum
I can dance as good as spiderman can fly
I spell you "yoOh"
I consider myself decent looking
I read atleast 20 books a year
I like to blast my music
I have never failed a grade
I like the smell of permanent marker
I am scared of the dark
I have had 10 or more detentions
I love make-up.
I love eyeliner.
My hair is its natural color.
I have a crush on the Math teacher
I go to church
I don't like country music
I cried to the "Concrete Angel" music video
I wear orange eyeshadow
I am hispanic.
I have blue lipstick
I have more than 20 purses
I like the snow
I walk in the rain
I have 7 screen names
There are some things I can write about that I can't talk about.
There are many people that I dislike.
I hate musicals.
My favortie color is pink.
I like skirts better then shorts.
I haven't been in any musical performances.
I love cheesecake.
I have a lot of trust issues.
I am a virgin.
I eat meat sometimes.
If it has vodka in it, I'll drink it.
I am addicted to aim.
My room is yellow.
I have a sister (s)
I wait too long before I see a doctor.
If I like a movie, I become obsessed with it.
I don't like video games.
I hate competition. i never win. ever. ever. ever.
I can take good qualities and learn something from everyone I know.
I can sometimes be very self-conscious.
I don’t have tattoos.
I am an independent person.
I think I'm a dork
I can't keep secrets.
I live in my room.
I know only one person out of my friends who truly knows me.
I tend to get pissed at people very easily and then get over it very easily
I love stuffed animals. (i love A stuffed animal)
I've never puked from alcohol intake. (because ive never drank)
I hate cartoons.
My family has no "family secrets" that we're not supposed to talk about.
I'm afraid of letting everyone down.
I think to a degree, I've been too grown up for years.
I sometimes get upset for no good reason.
It would be nice if I were to be on MTV someday.
I go to a public school.
I don't identify with my generation.
I know who I want to marry someday.
I believe there's someone for everyone.
My family is dysfunctional
I am in high school.
I have my learners permit.

I have my license.
I get bored easily.
I’m right handed.
I have really long hair.
I don't get along well with my family.
I'm Wiccan.

I'm really good with kids.
I used to be a "cutter:"
I love to act.
I get withdrawal if I don't have internet access for more than a few days.
I've had an eating disorder.
I don't know how to drive.
I have kissed a member of the opposite sex.
I like having my picture taken.
I have been in a fist fight.
I am bilingual
I don’t like rap music
I never wear makeup. i rarely wear makeup
I have a brother
I love Spike from Buffy.
I have been to Texas.
I have a hard time keeping in touch with people who are far away.
I’ve smoked pot.
I love sci-fi
I would like to get a tattoo some time in my life.
I wish money really did grow on trees.
I don't live with my parents.
I secretly like dressing up.
I have over 50 people on my buddy list.
I enjoy painting.
I don't know anything about cars.
I do not like cold weather one bit.
I hate doing my dishes.
I don't like stupid people.
I know how to sew.
I have brown hair.

now take this survay and copy and paste at least one thing (or more) that you didnt know about me.

and if you were surprised or not...

haha this should be interesting

forbidden__wish @ 2005-01-13T22:18:00

2005-01-14T03:20:37Z

F i r s t s

First best friend: Christina
First car: 94 toyota tercel haha blue..
First kiss on the lips: joshua
First real kiss: joshua
First break-up: bill
First screen name: cuteteen316
First self purchased album: dont remember
First funeral: grandpa armond
First pets: hamletta (haha) hamster!
First true love: joshua
First enemy: dont know
First big trip: Canada
First music you remember hearing in your house: Jesus loves me (LOL)

l a s t s
last car ride: comin home from jenns partay
Last good cry: 2 nights ago
Last movie seen: Fat Albert with bill, o and white noise with jenn!
Last beverage drank: sprite
Last food consumed: resees
Last crush: hmm havent had a "crush" in a long time
Last phone call: mom makin sure i was on my way home in the SnOw
Last time showered: um today in the mornin
Last shoes worn: slippers
Last item bought: underwear :) at vs!!
Last time scolded: yesterday evening

r e l a t i o n s h i p s
01. who are your very best friends? jenn! miss capone and alysse)
02. do you have a boyfriend/girlfriend? no :(
f a s h i o n | s t u f f
01. where is your favorite place to shop?: american eagle
02. any tattoos or piercing?: just the reg. ear piercings that dont count lol

s p e c i f i c s
01. do you do drugs?: nope
02. what kind of shampoo do you use?: herbal essence
03. what are you most scared of?: rape
04. what are you listening to right now?: daphne loves derby
05. where do you want to get married?: beach
06. how many buddies are online right now?: 17
07. what would you change about yourself?: height.. i hate my height
f a v o r i t e s
01. color: pink!
02. food: chicken
03. boys' names: something julie came up with and i liked it alot but i dont remember :/
04. girls' names: emma
05. subjects in school: english, history
06. animals: dolphine
07. sports: to watch: FOOTBALL
08. perfume: addidas moves for her
09. cologne: sexy for him

h a v e | y o u | e v e r
01. taken a bath with someone? nope
02. smoked? nope
03. made yourself throw up?: yes
04. skinny dipped?: nope
05: been in love?: yes
06. made yourself cry to get out of trouble?: no
07. pictured a crush naked?: yes
08. actually seen a crush naked? yes
09. cried when someone died?: yes
10. lied?: yes
12. fallen for your best friend?: no
13. been rejected?: yes
14. rejected someone?: yes
15. used someone?: not intentionally
16. done something you regret?: yeahhhh big time

c u r r e n t
clothes: ice cream pj pants and off shoulder ae shirt thats pinkish color
music: underoath
make-up: eye liner,eye shadow,blush,foundation,mascara
annoyance: exams alllll dayyy
smell: skittles
favorite artist: underoath
desktop picture: taking back sunday

l a s t | p e r s o n
hugged: kalah
you imed: caleb

a r e | y o u
open minded: yeah pretty much
arrogant: no dont think so... i wouldnt want to be
interesting: yes
moody: sometimes
hardworking: yessa
healthy: yeah im pretty healthy
attractive: im not horrible looking
bored: yes everyday lol
responsible: yessa
obsessed: with some things
angry: no
sad: yessss
disappointed: yup
hyper: no
trusting: i dont trust many ppl...
talkative: not very
legal:

w h o | d o | y o u | w a n n a
kill: sponge bob
slap: josh
look like: kate hudson
talk to online: hmm duno anyone?

w h i c h | i s | b e t t e r
coke or pepsi: coca cola
flowers or candy: flowers
tall or short: tall
thick or thin: niehter.. just right
Long or short: long

r a n d o m
in the morning i am: cranky
all i need is: love
what do you notice on a person first: eyes
last person you danced with: peter
worst question to ask: asking me why im doing something
who makes you laugh the most: JENN!!
who makes you smile: william alan
who gives you a funny feeling when you see them: josh... and some other ppl i rather not say lol
who do you have a crush on: hmm i like 2 ppl right now but i wouldnt call it a crush

d o | y o u | e v e r
sit on the internet all night waiting for that someone to IM you: um def. not
wait to see if i don't IM someone first if they will IM me: yeahh occasionally
wish you were a member of the opposite sex: um no...
Wish you were younger: not at all

n u m b e r
of times i have had my heart broken: 1
of hearts i have broken: hmm 2
of guys i've kissed: 3
of girls i've kissed: none
of continents i have lived on: one
of tight friends: 4
of cds i own: hmm alot...

dance auditons

2005-01-11T17:44:39Z

for dance we have this huge production coming up and auditions were last night. i was soo nervous and i was feeling sick and everything, but i had to go to get a place in the production. this wasnt a reg. prepare your own peice... we had to jsut go she wouldnt tell us what she was guna make us do. So when i got there she said we ahve 10 min to come up with something to the music she gave us, then perform it in front of everyone. i was so nervous and i had to go SECOND. but i did pretty good and i felt semi-confident. But at the end of the night one of ppl observing us dance was a younger instructor that i sometimes dance with and she came up to me and told me that my dance was hott and i did well. so im excited i think i might of gotten a lead!! yay!

hehe had to share it im so excited... bad thing tho i woke up this morning and i think i stripped my upper leg muscles i can barely move em :(

xo always

left behind

2005-01-09T04:46:05Z

ever have those days where its so obvious everyone has something to do besides you. and you know its because your a loser, and then you realize hmm i need friends who can just be like there on the sec and just be free to chill with you. But then you know your not cool enough to get new freinds. And your attempts fail and your always the loser.. yea basically thats me.

I also feel like i could.... cut my hair, grow it out, dye it (everything possible) i could lose weight, gain weight, body build (get a nice cut body and whatnot)i could get new clothes, i could change my eye color, even try to be something im not, change my personality... but it still wouldnt change anything

its also cool how i cant seem to get a boyfriend, its gettin to me. Everyone else is out with their ppl and yeahh im no one.. no one at all i love it a wicked lot. Its stupid how you dont even notice either. Or how your not their and i hate how i get replys like aww you poor darlin'.. i already know im a failure.. you dont have to feel sry haha...

failure at life xxx

super cool

2005-01-06T17:15:27Z

I've kissed someone;

on the cheek
on the lips
on their hands or fingers
in my room
in their room
of the same sex.
of the opposite sex
younger than me
older than me
with jet black hair
with gray hair.
with curly hair
with blonde hair & blue eyes
with flaming red hair.
shorter than me
taller than me
with a lip ring
with a tounge ring.
who was drunk
who was high
who I had just met
who was homosexual.
who I didn't really want to kiss.
on a holiday
on a dare
who was going out with someone else
who was going out with someone close to me.
who was my good friend's brother or sister.
who had been/is in jail.
in a graveyard.
in a church.
at a show/concert
at the beach
in a pool, jacuzzi, or some type of water
who was legally too young/old for me to have sex with.
with dyed hair
with a shaved head
who was/is my good friend
who was/is in a band
who has tattoos
who is of a completely different race than me.
in the rain
in another continent besides where I was born
with an accent
with an std
on a boat.
in a car/taxi/bus
on a plane.
at the circus/carnival
with a missing body part.
in the movies
eskimo style
upside down.
in jail.
who I didn't know their name.
who didn't know my name.
who was wearing pink underwear.
who was a complete asshole
who forgot about it.
on a roller coaster.
when I was 10.
in an RV
who thought I was a member of the opposite sex.
who thought I was drunk when I wasn't.
who broke my heart
who's heart I broke

lalala

2005-01-06T17:06:41Z

skittles are yummy

snow is kinda nice... as long as i stay inside

digital cameras are the bestest thing invented

online and computer are next

boys are stupid

but i want one anyways

being a teenager sucks beyond control

i want to get married and have a nice life

pens are cool if they have med. points

reeses are yummy when your depressed

along with duble fudge brownie ice cream

i love you

but hate you also

why are words like wicked ill and nasty refer to somethhing you like, or think its cool?

even though i use them and think im tough haha

why do ppl classify eachother by the type of music they listen too

why do most grls think they're ugly and hate their lives

the boy you want never wants you

there's always someone better than you to make you feel like your stupid

something always goes wrong at least a few times in a month

candles are cool but always make you kinda sad

christmas is always too short

friends can always help

but they can one handedly mess up your life within a few days

mmm and im done writing pointless things in this live journal

i <3 daphne loves derby

yesterday

2004-12-30T16:30:01Z

yeah so yesterday was def. different but good :).

I went to see my ex from a long time ago, we had always been pretty much friends but havent seen eachother for awhile. So we went to a movie and then to his house, and then to the gansett bball game (grls). I had a good time, and things were sweet... we're both interested and im excited to see how it all goes :)

xo always

till later

*muah

usher is nice

2004-12-29T00:10:50Z

usher is sexy... so i thought it be nice to have him on my live journal :op...

im suprised i could do it on my own i usually ahve someone to do it for me

but i found a way

doesnt it suck when you realize you like someone

but its always too late

and even if it isnt you wonder if it would even work out

::sighs:: life i tell ya

o well guess i'll be single for a long time

xo always hope your enjoying your vaca

and i hope you had a good christmas

i got my digital camera!! :)

christmas is almost here

2004-12-21T19:08:15Z

Im so excited for christmas. Im getting a digital camera... i cant wait!! Most of the family is here, hopefully it will snow on christmas. I dont have to work christmas day either, which im rele happy about! :)

Yesterday i had a wicked fun day. My mother, grandma, me and alysse all went to the mall. We had lots of fun... i searched for something to wear nice to church (besides i needed a nice skirt) so i was very happy with wat i got and i love my shoesies!! I heart shoes anyhow.. and alysse got me this cutest jacket from Filenes!! for christmas, i heart it too

I love you forever alysse :p

fun times... hopefully much more :D

forbidden__wish @ 2004-12-17T09:58:00

2004-12-17T15:10:17Z

got this from julie who got it from sarah... i was bored... im sry

[ ] I think I'm really attractive.
[ ] I prefer winter over summer.
[x] I am a geek.
[x] I am a shopaholic.
[x] I am reasonably intelligent.
[ ] I am attracted to girls.
[x] I am attracted to boys.
[ ] I like British accents.
[ ] I smoke regularly.
[ ] I smoke socially.
[ ] I drink socially.
[ ] I drink regularly.
[ ] I get drunk easily.
[ ] I do "drug(s)".
[ ] I will never date a bad kisser.
[ ] I've lied to avoid kissing them again.
[ ] I brush my hair at least 50 times a night.
[x] I am religious.
[ ] I am not religious but have morals.
[ ] I lie frequently.
[ ] I am impulsive.
[x] I am hardworking.
[ ] I loved Eternal Sunshine Of The Spotless Mind
[ ] She's All That is one of my favourite movies.
[x] I am good at History.
[x] I speak more than two languages.
[x] I enjoy taking pictures.
[x] I like spending money on myself.
[ ] I like spending money on others.
[x] I have a regular income.
[ ] I earn money on a job-by-job basis.
[x] I pay my own bills.
[x] I rely on my parents for money. -sometimes
[x] I can cook.
[x] I enjoy cleaning. - sometiems
[ ] Tidiness is a must in my life.
[ ] I like clutter.
[ ] My idea of good music is Britney Spears. - sometiems but she cant sing for shit
[x] I am fashion-conscious.
[x] I have good taste.
[x] People tell me I have good taste.
[ ] I am told I have yet to fulfill my potential.
[ ] I am good at sports.
[x] I am good at certain sports.
[ ] I couldn't do sports to save my life.
[x] I am creative.
[ ] I am extremely artistically inclined.
[ ] I want to be an artist when I grow up.
[ ] I want to be an engineer when I grow up.
[x] I eat when I'm upset.
[ ] I cannot adapt to change.
[x] I am interested in politics.
[ ] I have shoplifted.
[ ] I download MP3s.
[ ] I have done underage drinking.
[ ] I have gone underage clubbing.
[ ] I can dance reasonably well.
[x] I can dance extremely well.
[ ] I dance like a cardboard gorilla.
[x] I can sing.
[ ] I sing like someone stepped on my foot.
[x] I can swim.
[ ] I enjoy surveys.
[x] I enjoy surveys when I'm bored.
[x] I keep a journal.
[ ] My teachers don't like me.
[x] I enjoy controversy.
[ ] I have a thing for bad boys/girls.
[ ] I have tattoos.
[ ] I've been in a nudist colony.
[ ] I'm not sure if I want to have children.
[x] I'm not sure if I'll get married.
[ ] I know who I will marry.
[x] Someone has a crush on me.
[x] I am interesting.
[ ] I am a good liar.
[ ] People enjoy talking to me.
[x] I annoy people from time to time.
[x] I am a born leader.
[ ] I am a born leader but shouldn't lead.
[x] I've snuck out of the house.
[ ] I enjoy felching
[x] I have a foot fetish.
[x] I have a shoe fetish
[ ] I watch Sex And The City.
[ ] I don't think Sarah Jessica Parker is pretty.
[ ] I want to be J Lo.
[ ] I cut myself.
[ ] I have cut myself.
[ ] I hate people who pretend to be suicidal.
[x] I hate popular people.
[ ] I think cheerleading is a sport.
[ ] I am photogenic.
[ ] I live in Chucks.
[ ] I think graffiti is art.
[ ] I have dated a criminal.
[x] I have been cheated on.
[ ] I have cheated on someone.
[x] I have a temper.
[x] I like playgrounds.
[x] I dance in the rain.
[ ] I am obsessed with Shakespeare.
[x] I have tanlines.
[x] My favourite color is pink.
[ ] My favourite color is black.
[ ] I would classify myself as emo.
[ ] I am musically inclined.
[x] I like listening to music.
[x] I like music-blasting cars.
[ ] Thongs are comfortable
[x] I like flip-flops.
[ ] I know what monogamy is
[ ] ... and I believe in it.
[ ] I want to be a social worker when I grow up.
[x] I have sibling[s].
[x] My siblings annoy me
[ ] I think South Park is funny.
[x] I prefer Google
[ ] I can sit Indian Style
[ ] I own a cat
[ l I plan on owning more.
[x] I read a lot.
[x] I've cheated on a test.
[x] I've let someone cheat off of me on a test

Have you ever...
[ ] been drunk.
[ ] smoked pot.
[x] kissed someone.
[ ] rode in a taxi.
[x] been dumped.
[ shoplifted.
[ ] been fired.
[ ] been in a fist fight.
[ ] broken a bone
[ ] got hit by a car.
[x snuck out of your parent's house.
[ ] been arrested.
[x] gone in a mosh pit.
[ ] stolen something from your school.
[ ] celebrated new years in times square.
[x] went on a blind date.
[x] lied to a friend.
[ ] had a crush on a teacher.
[ ] celebrated mardi-gras in new orleans.
[ ] been to europe.
[x] skipped school.
[ ] thrown up from drinking.
[ ] lost your sibling.
[x] played 'clue'
[x] had a sleepover party.
[x] went ice skating.
[ cheated on a bf/gf.
[x] been cheated on.
[x] had your tonsils out.
[x] had a car
[x] totalled a car

DO YOU ...
[x] feel loved.
[x] feel lonely.
[ feel happy.
[x] hate yourself.
[ ] think you're attractive.
[x] have a dog.
[x] have your own room.
[ ] listen to Hawaiian Music
[ ] listen to underground hip hop
[ ] listen to rap.
[x] listen to rock.
[ ] listen to country.
[ ] listen to reggae.
[ ] listen to techno.
[x] have hobbies
[ ] have more than 1 best friend.
[x] get good grades
[ ] play an instrument.
[x] have slippers
[ ] wear boxers
[x] wear black eyeliner.
[ ] like the color blue.
[x] like the color pink.
[x] like to read.
[x] like to write.
[ ] have long hair
[x] have short hair.
[x] have a cell phone.
[ ] have a laptop.
[ ] have a pager

ARE YOU ...
[ ] ugly.
[x] pretty.
[x] okay.
[ ] Handsome.
[x] bored.
[x] happy.
[ ] bilingual.
[ ] Hawaiian.
[ ] Samoan.
[ ] Filipino.
[ ] Korean.
[ ] British.
[x] white.
[ ] black.
[ ] mexican.
[ ] asian.
[x] short.
[] tall.
[ ] realistic.
[ ] sick.
[ ] mad.
[x] lazy.
[x] single
[] taken.
[x] looking.
[] not looking.
[ ] talking to someone.
[ ] IMing someone.
[] scared to die
[x] tired.
[x] sleepy
[x] annoyed.
[x] hungry.
[x] thirsty.
[ ] on the phone.
[x] in your room.
[ ] drinking something.
[ ] eating something.
[x] in your pjs.
[x] ticklish.
[x] listening to music.
[ ] a virgin

this is not understandable!

2004-12-04T04:56:30Z

Um okay so i was told that some ppl have a problem with me because i said soemthing ONCE to defend my friend who was feeling pretty bad. So i said something. And that someone said something back, and it was justifiable. And i replied saying i understood what they meant and all i was doing was being there for my friend, and that i wasnt trying to judge. But apparently they still have a problem, and i def. dont have a problem with anyone else. I dont get give nasty stares!!! Im def. past 4th grade... i dont give ppl nasty stares, and esp why would i when i have no reason? So please dont start saying things that i def. didnt do, i was esp. staying away because i heard your mad at me, so i wouldnt look in your direction and give you mean stares. I dont want to be dropped in the middle of this and if your asking why did i post something before then, thats becasue i felt someone needed defending (if that was wrong or right doesnt matter... i felt like i needed to, plain and simple, so sry). But to all of a sudden hate me and put me in the middle of a fight... i just rele dont see thats very neccessary... im sry this is all going on but i rele dont have anything to do with it. Im just julies friend, thats all. I dont understand why im constantly being put down, yall dont even know me... we hung out a few times and i def. did nothing to you then or NOW... just let things drop! this is way too much drama for any of us...

well i had a fun night to everyone else i will post it latas!

xo always

:)

work (dietary aide)

2004-12-01T03:06:15Z

i just started training at my new job. today was the first acutal work day i had. There was so much to remember, information overload... and i only have 2 more days of training, i believe anyway... i was soo nervous but almost right away i felt okay... the grl i was training with was very nice. I like all the ppl that were there so far, it seems like a nice atmosphere.

The only hard part is trying to remember everything, and then im still rele nervous about getting to know each of the patients names and making sure they get what they can have... ahh! its guna take forever!
theres a million details i have to remember, but they told me not to worry because everyone feels like that. AHH... o well

and now something special id like to say

!!!HAPPY BIRTHDAY ALYSSE!!!!
**SWEET 16**

much love
i work again tomorrow and thursday 4-8 ppls
xo

forbidden__wish @ 2004-11-30T10:49:00

2004-11-30T15:52:08Z

yesterday was slow... today even slower...

yes

:/

?

i just love that you dont know i exsist :p

Heart aches and Heart mends

2004-11-30T00:03:11Z

Yeah so it ended up going really well on sunday night :).
Rich was very cool, very cute, and i liked him alot. Im looking forward to getting to know him better :)
Hes in a band called some antics, which i think is pretty saweet! He plays the guitar, and i def. love that!

So i went over julies and we went to the mall i bought a scarf and sweater at old navy, then i got a dark pair of jeans from Filenes.
Then jay met us there, and later rich.
We all went bowling and then got the movie terminal (it was pretty good, ive seen better but o well). Then we went to wendys and got some frosties, then went to Barnes and Noble... and the reason for that is unknown lol.

It was a good time.

!!! Julie i love you, things will get better i know home life isnt very easy right now, but i promise to be here if no one else is, you can count on my always !!!

xo forever!

HOME!

2004-11-28T04:07:30Z

I am finally home... yay.

After 16 1/2 hours in the car, it feels good to be in my room

Tomorrow im getting up and going to spend the day at julies! And shes guna be suprised!! :)

I also get to see this guy rich, which im def. excited about, maybe if we hit it off well things will start looking better :) Maybe just maybe i wont be single for long...

So tomorrow is an exciting day (when i decided to get up)!!!

This is my temporary background till i find something i super like... you should give me suggestions and show me some sweet backgrounds if you know of any

xo always
muah
Shera Joy

Georgia

2004-11-19T02:12:32Z

Im at my aunt and uncles house... was watching all the kids. But their in bed now. So im wicked bored, so i came here and thought id update.

Im going to georgia (my sister lives there now) for thanksgiving. My mom got to fly and me and my dad are driving.. yay?

So a note to everyone: I WILL MISS YOU FOR ABOUT 11 days! much love...

I kinda hate going away, cuz i miss all my friends... i wish i could say and my boyfriend but since i havent found a guy that would be good for me... well at least ive found him... but he doesnt like me haha. So thats that.

Im coming back the 29th... prob. wicked late
I had to miss the AA ball too :0( i was guna go with my friend mike... it woulda been so much fun
Esp. since i love to dance, dancing is awesome... getting my grove on ;)!!

Well have fun everyone
xo always... :)

Super Sick

2004-11-14T00:33:10Z

My day was super sick... well pretty much haha. Well friday night all my friends came over alysse, brooke, derek, jayson, julie :). We just chilled and i got my braces off. I have a beautiful smile now yay! Its about time. So yeah ppl came over and we all chilled in my room and laughed at finding nemo... Today we all woke up and watched tvu live (its like a mtv but for hard core bands its super sweet) then brookie made us pancakes, then we got ready to leave and go to the mall to spend my 80 dollars!! It was nice i got 3 shirts and saucony sneaks... red ones :).
Then pete julie and jay are over and we are about to go rent a movie... yay
well thought id update...

xo cya later chickies!

much love <3

17

2004-11-08T21:50:16Z

Yeah so today i turned 17... :).. it is my birthday! Yay. Im happy about it. Yesterday i watched white chicks... it was rele funny at some parts, and of course it was enjoyable cuz i watched it with jay and julie. So i've had a few friends call whishing me a happy birthday which i appreciated :).. it was nice of them to remember

well xo always im off to dance till 9 later gater!

you know you do you kill me well

2004-11-06T21:28:59Z

Things are getting better, but you never know when that can turn around. I just figured... the hec with it. Who needs ppl who are guna hurt you. Its better to forgive and forget. I also got my underoath and hawthorne heights cd's back, so listening to that of course has improved my element lol. I have to watch my 5 little cousins tonight but im going to a party at my best friends house afterward, im looking forward to it!! I cant wait.
Im guna start work soon now that i got the job... 8.25, 8.50 and hour (im not sure which one yet)so its sweet! Guna have that money coming in! Although isurance for my car is 120ish every month... but thats okay and im also going to have 1000 back into my account in the spring... :) happy thoughts
I started school now, finally im guna have to work my butt of! I have to catch up to 2 months of work!
Last night i went over my friend caleb's house and julie alysse caitlin jess jeff mike rachel and ester where there, we had a fun time just haning out... but there was a suprise birthday cake for me! it was unexpected and nice...
Julie wanted me to open her presents (so i did) and she got me a wicked sick band shirt (Taking Back Sunday)and a sweet watch and a cute picture of me and her, thanks hunnie your are DA BOMB haha. Me n alysse slept over julies too, fun times

xo always

forbidden__wish @ 2004-11-05T09:27:00

2004-11-05T14:33:39Z

So yeah i obviously havent had a very good past couple of days
but im sure i will make it.
I guess sometimes who you think is your best friend is
turns out to be quite the opposite...

I have an interview today at Wachusett Manor Nursing Home
for a dietary aide position.
I hope i can get hired,
i really need a job.
So thats today and im really nervous about it,
i hope it turns out okay.

Then around 7 im hanging out with
a bunch of ppl
(hope its fun... sounds it anyways...)
in westminster.

So thats my wonderful day...

xo...

forbidden__wish @ 2004-11-01T21:33:00

2004-11-02T02:34:29Z

i love how you care

im really hating up a storm lately

its healthy for my soul

maybe i take interst in him because he actually wants to talk to me unlike you other ppl.. even though its not genuine guess im crying out for some attention.. im like a frikin flower that hasnt had rain in 50 years.. yeah i know laugh im pathetic.. maybe im too caught up to realize im the loser.. but yeah i know i am so laugh all you want the joke is def on ME

forbidden__wish @ 2004-10-28T16:44:00

2004-10-28T20:45:16Z

you're XhardcoreX!

How can I label you?
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dance = life

2004-10-28T20:22:59Z

right now all ive been doing is practicing for dance... dressing for dance.. or getting makeup done for dance lol. Our performaces are all this weekend with one benefit today... at 10 am.. i had to be there at 7:30 :o/ kinda crappy.. i was tired. Then friday we have on then saturday we have two 2 and one at 7.. then sunday once again.. hmm, our makeup takes forever and the body tight/suits are annoying... but i guess our peice looks nice :) tahts allt hat matters?
Then at 6 i have to go to my church for a 40 days of purpose thing... fun fun fun
So julies over right now... we've been laying around all day its sweet (she took the day off haha because of dance)

So this weekend... you prob. wont see me... im booked with performances (poo)

xo always xo

oh yeah... and i went to wachusett nursing home in gardner to drop off my application.. and the supervisor for dietary aide was there... wicked sweet.. and we talked to her for like 10 min. She knew some of my relatives... it looks really good for me.. im leaning toward getting the job... i hope so at least :) things are looking up!
had to add it :p

Funky Me

2004-10-25T01:50:06Z

Yeah so saturday night turned out to be pretty fun. Alysse Julie n Brooke came over watched The Sixth Sense.. (alysse never has seen it, so it was a must) and ate our chinese food. Then after that we talked for hours, it was nice. The i talked to someoen online who made me more afraid for them then ever... and i couldnt sleep so i cried myself to sleep then i had horrible dreams... wanst good. Then we had to wake up early for church... which wasnt fun either... because i was tired rele tired... and then i had dance for 5 hours afterward. I danced so bad. i was exhausted! And thoughts about how i have to live there this coming week because performances are at the end of the week... and we are doing a benefit on Thursday ahh horrid!

ne ways
thats my lovely day?
yeahh
xo shera

fun nights

2004-10-23T16:03:00Z

Hopefully tonight will be fun. Im having some of my friends over (grls night :D) and we are all guna watch a movie and eat chinese food because it is the best... i have to clean my room tho... its messy. lol. Last night i went to the football game at Gardner, it was interesting, i got a few whistles... which made me feel good that i am not ugly and thats not why i have no boyfriend. But no guys for me anyways right now, but its always nice to feel pretty. Brookes bf is a senior so me and her were sitting with all these seniors, but none of them knew who i was since i dont go there so it was sweet haha, im a weirdo. Then someone didnt say hi to me that said they were... but thats their issue.

So then after that i drove over to brookes and watched a movie with them for awhile because i def. didnt want to go home... it was nice... tom made me laugh all night... cool kid

well later kids
xo i <3 you xo